I made a huge decision that i didn't know if I could do it, but I did it. I can't be used anymore, I can't be a puppet and manipulated into doing things that I know that its not right. It's my turn to take my path and pick how i want it and not tell me what to do and tell me who I should be and how I should do things. I was never a friend, I was their option. I was only there if they wanted to start trouble, and do mean things and get me involved. My wheels are finally turning and I should've noticed what was happening, but i didnt. Now I'm alone and this evil ruined alot of good things. This evil thinks its so funny and its not funny to me.
Now its my turn to take the reins and decide who I want to be. I know the past can't be fixed, but I hope one day the bridges that have burn can be built again. What's important now, is Me. To figure what I want, to do things by myself until Brian comes home. Do things that i love like reading, writing, painting, taking long nature walks. I miss taking my long walks and exploring new things that I have never done before.
To be there for friends and not hide the truth from people that I love. No more lying for other people, that's what gets me in trouble. I'm free, there was a lot of weight on my shoulders and it has lifted. Now I can go and walk like nothing hit me like their anger, hatred, pride, lust, greed.
I don't have to be afraid, now I can have my own opinions and not being told how i feel. I don't need that in my life, because that makes me look fake and I'm not fake. I don't like center of attention, I'm to shy for that. I'm a thinker and creative.
No one can control me anymore. I'm Free
"Never make someone a priority when all you are to them is an option." -Maya Angelou.
That's all I was: AN OPTION. I'm Free!
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