This is Me: Part Two

I am different than all my peers.  I don’t want to be a clone or follow someone’s lead, I want to take my own trail and be successful down it, not be put down and be manipulated to do other things.  I use to not care of what others think about me, I did in High school, but now I’m a senior in College.  When I started College after high school, I didn't have a lot of friends and I was okay with that.  I loved being on my own, and doing my own things.  I had a car and went grocery shopping went to church every Sunday or Saturday.  When I came to Florida for more schooling I met so many people and I had great friends, but I didn't want to get close, when I came to Beacon College, I was really quiet, didn't really open up to anyone.  My whole life I was bullied and the fact is I feeling would people still be bullies.  I had actually a couple great friends and two best friends.  My views changed when I hang out with them.  There is a lot of things that I don’t agree or believe in because of my religion and I was always told that I’m judging.  I stopped going to Mass, Something got into my head that you don’t have to go to church to pray to god.  So I stopped going, and I lost myself for not going.  I started swearing like a sailor, I have never sworn so much in my life and I did things that I shouldn't have done.  If I just went to school and stayed in my apartment, I would be in the same Marta that first came to Florida.  I use to write and read, and I don’t do that anymore.  I love writing, I started writing at age 11, and one of my stories went to a local Fair and got the Grand Prize Winner and from that day I kept writing.   One day my dream is to become an Author, whether its poetry, Novels, series, doesn't matter what I write.  My real interest is Anthropology/ Archaeology, one of these days I will go on to my schooling to get my Master’s in Anthropology/Archaeology.  I would love to travel the world and do excavations in Egypt and see the Great Wall of China, Mayan Temples, Stonehenge, the Catacombs in Paris, or Haunted places in Europe.  History has always been my favorite thing; the second favorite is Horses, and then writing, and then art.  Painting and Stain glass is my favorite.  I can’t wait for my senior year; I’m only going to worry about school and nothing else.  Sometimes I really think, I made a mistake returning to Beacon, I should've went to a school that had my degree, but I made a mistake, I have bad regrets.  I'm only human.

This is Me: Part One

I didn’t think I was going to write this, because I didn’t know what people would think or say, or I’m just writing this for attention.  But I don’t care what people say anymore.  My name is Marta Marie Wendt, I was born on October 25, 1990 in Elgin, Illinois, at 12:44 am.  There was my parents, my mother Lori was still a college student, which she had to take a year off to take care of me when I was born and my father Edward was out of college but working at night.  My name was picked when my parents watched the Sound of Music and just recently we found out that my great great grandma was name Marta, but she spelled it like Marte, that was the old spelling over in Germany.  My great great grandma Marte was supposed to be on the Titanic to travel to the United States, but she was sick before the voyage so she had to postpone the trip to the United States.  If my family was on that voyage and was in that nasty wreck I wouldn’t be here nor my father or his twin and or my grandmother, my cousins, basically the whole family.  But they took a different voyage to Ellis Island and ended up in the state of Illinois.  Years later my brother Edward was born January 24, 1994 in Rockford, Illinois, we lived in Belvidere, Illinois at the time.

Me and my brother are very close, even though we have stupid fights, but we’re best friends and we have been through a lot growing up.  But we take good care of each other.   Eddie and I were taught differently and lived differently than all the people that I knew and know.  We lived without TV and we only watched movies, whether it was Disney or about Catholic saints, and bible stories.  That is the reason why I am today.  Gone to church every Sunday and holy days and holidays.  My favorite radio show as a kid was Adventures in Odyssey.  It was a show to about good and evil and what god wants to do with your life, it was something spiritual.  Christian and Catholic music and Disney songs, classical, is mainly what I listened too, but I loved it and still love it.  I don’t care I missed out on the popular group Nsync or Britney Spears, basically everything in the 90s, I ended up listening to them now, when it was my time to choose to do with my life. 

I attend catholic school from preschool to second grade.  The only best friend I had was a girl name Jenny.  We were like sisters, we did almost everything together, birthday parties, at each others house, everything.  Then second grade came and I was having a difficult time in my class.  My second grade teacher kept putting my name on the board because I was not paying attention or answering the questions she wanted asked because I didn’t understand.  My brain didn’t work that way.  So my parents ended up taking me to get tested at a public school.  My teacher and my principle told me and my parents that I had ADD and the councilor  that got me tested told my teacher, principle, and my parents that I had math disability, comprehension and decoding processing.  So yes I have a learning disability and I have always been made fun of my difference in learning.  I was always called the retard in class, whether you weren’t suppose say that word in school or not it was still said.  So from going to Catholic school me and my family moved and went to public school because the catholic school didn’t have the help that I needed.  So public school especially in the state of Illinois, it was hell.  The learning disability teachers didn’t help the students, they just put you down every day, every month, and the whole year.  I had a teacher when I was in 8^th grade and she gave me a detention because I got a B on one of math tests.  The school in Illinois was horrible.  I had a few friends here and there, mainly boys were my friends.  I got along with boys more than girls, because I couldn’t deal with the drama and girls sometimes are bitches.

When we moved to Wisconsin in 2006, my life changed.  I went to a small school in Muscoda, Wisconsin.  Riverdale High School was a small school, but it was a good school.  My favorite teacher my first year there was awesome, she was Special Education teacher and she helped me with everything to the point where for the rest of high school I was out of my education classes and into real full fledge classes.  English class in high school was my favorite class, because of one teacher name Mrs. Julia Chitwood, she was great she and another teacher in my life got me into writing. 

I have so many dreams, but none of them never came true yet.  The one dream I had was and is to be a writer.  I love to write, whether I write about nature and fantasy or about myself.  When I was a little girl, there was a little farm that we passed by to town and there was spotted horse in one of the paddocks and in my head I named the horse Spot and since I was about 6 I always wanted a horse and take riding lessons, just to ride free.  I finally got my horse.  His name was Twister and he was my best friend, he gave me a lot of confidence, he was the reason why I wanted to be a Dressage Rider.  Dressage is so elegant and I wanted to be a part of that world, but I never got there.  Twister died and I was devastated and I lost my confidence and lost myself.

My first college I went a horse school and that didn’t pan out, I wanted to be a part of the horse world.  There was a time I wanted to own Thoroughbreds and race them out on the track, to be the next Triple Crown Winner.  Now I want to do something more amusing and exciting.  I want to be the Next Indiana Jones.  I want to be an Archaeologist/Anthologist.  I want to explore the world and experience new things.  I’m tired of everyday life and the country that I know.  I want to go to Egypt and see the Pyramids and the Sphinx and the mummies.  I have always thought of doing Biblical Archaeology.  I’m also curious about World religions and legends, vampires, all of that.  I want to open store with this kind of stuff.

Now my life is changing.  I’m starting my senior year at Beacon College, and finding a job for me to do after school.  But the first thing to do after college is to get married to my best friend.  My first year at Beacon College I met this guy in my General Anthropology class.  I was hoping that he was single, because he was very sweet and kind, but he ended up with this person that is hard to explain, but every time in class he always flirted with me and he gave me a pet name the Ugly Duckling and I knew he was the one.  He saw me, when no else have.  I was invisible and he sought me out.  We became very good friends and we never dated until my sophomore and junior year.  During the summer of Sophomore year we took a break to see if we were supposed to be together, but we are.  We’re back together and yes there is a lot of ups and downs, but what my fiancé went through is life changing and I understand what kind of stress he was going through and he was told that the way he’s thinking will make him think that he’s not a real man and that he will take everything out on everyone.  I love him and he’s mine forever.

I’m so happy for being with someone that I love, my family, and my friends that I have now and what I will have in the future.  I actually can’t wait for the future and what is going to happen.

I’m a dreamer, a thinker.  I think all the time. I think of what people will think of me?  Or will they like me or will they judge me for who I am.  I don’t like being Center of Attention, I don’t like the attention, I never have and never will.  I have a nasty temper, but what helps that is painting.  I really love to paint.  My college Professor told me that I need to be a painter, basically an artist.  I never use to like art, but this teacher got me into art.  Painting and Mix Media art is my favorite and so is Stain glass.  My talent for stain glass comes from my mother, because she makes stain glass windows and lamps, I love it.

I have more to say, but I’m going to stop for now.