My life again has turned upside down. Brian my fiance is back in the hospital. Why the hell is this happening to 24 year old. He should be home enjoying his last year of college and being home with me and his friends and our cats and looking at ideas for our wedding next year. For us to go through marriage prep together, but No, more cancer is to pop up and ruin everything. Why is this demon getting in the way of happiness? This isn't God's doing, the devil is getting in the way. He's the Prince of Darkness, hate, disease, he's the reason of the sickness in this world, but why pick him, why pick a gentle soul of God's creatures?
These chemicals are going to be so much harsher on his body and to tell you the truth i don't know how i'm going to handle this one. I'm so scared for him and I won't be there this time, cause he's in another hospital up in Indiana instead of Florida. So I can't go and see him every weekend like i did before. This whole situation sucks and I wish it didn't happen. Brian was doing very good during the summer and then it all started when we went to Walt Disney World for the week.
We were suppose to have a great time to celebrate our engagement that we didn't get to celebrate during Spring Break and we finally got a chance, but it was fail. Brian got sick in the middle of the week and he wasn't doing well and he felt sorry for ruining the trip and when our week was done we went home and we had to find out what was going on. We went to urgent care and they just told us it was a head cold and nothing else and he was just given medication, but the meds didn't work, we decided it was time to go to the ER and we should've went the first time, because they found a very big tumor and he didn't surgery. They took him all the way back up to Gainesville and me and my best friend Becca travelled up there and I had to give permission for them to operate on him, because his parents were on the plane. So they removed a very big tumor and he has a nice horseshoe scar on the back of his head.
After that surgery Brian ended up going home for a few weeks up in Illinois, because his family wants a second opinion and wants to know why this keeps happening and see what we can do to stop it. They went to this other hospital and they really didn't have anything new to say about his condition. So it was a waste of trip. So Brian was ready to come back home and Brian was having a hard time and he got a very sharp pain in his head they same area he had surgery, they went to the hospital to get a scan and they had to wait the next day to see if everything is okay. They called him and said everything is good. So Brian and his parents were on their way back to Florida until they got the call they found two more tumors in his brain. They were about 5 hours away from Chattanooga, Tenn, when they got the call and they had to turn away and go back. So now Brian is in for a treat. They have to grow stem cells and then they're removing his stem cells to save them from the chemo treatment for him to have them later. Our world is upside down and I don't know when its going to be Right-side up.
I'm all alone down here, but I know I have friends and family praying for him everyday and every night. I have friends that will stand right beside me when I need them. I pray to Saint Peregrine the Patron Saint of Cancer Patients every night and to our Holy Mother Mary to take my hand and help me to get through this journey.
My life has changed. I have changed. I grew up into the adult life too fast. This kind of stuff should be happening later on in life, not now in a young adult. If this happened to anyone else, I don't think they wouldn't be able to handle like I am. It's hard work and you really need to stay positive through the whole thing and never give up.
